Thursday, April 21, 2011

Running Out of Options

I have to admit, I did thought about it…the possibility. I mean, I have to admit you know…I can be quite paranoid and controlling. I have a habit of making sure I have control on situations I might get into. But I never really thought the worst could happen.
In a way I am glad…for my paranoia and my obsessive need to have everything written and sealed. I didn’t take the leap like most people did.
However, I feel sorry for those who did. I know their reasons for resigning. The usual ones: higher salary, a new management a higher position. But to have those dreams crushed suddenly…hell. Just thinking about those with families and what they are thinking right now. I’m sure most of them are desperately looking for any new and available positions in other companies. I am hoping they find one as soon as possible.
A part of me is angry for them. I’m sure aside from the shock and the disappointment, they too feel angry right now. Who wouldn’t be? Being promised a new job and training in Manila for a few months before being the pioneer group in Cebu then having those taken away from them…furious.
Compensations have been provided, but what is a month’s worth of salary to a future that has been cauterized? In the bright side, I am happy that they were provided compensation…despite a very very small one. I am hoping for all of them. They aren’t all my friends. Some I actually have no respect for at all, still…something like this…in these times, having no work…is not easy.
As an officemate said, with what happened, she appreciates her job more despite the shit she gets from people. I hope the idiots in the office would feel the same way and actually start working their asses off. Because I finally have my April resolution: I will teach them what the word STRICT means. Deliverance is such a wonderful word too, and appreciation is a word they would finally feel when I start the game they think I cannot play.
Happy April-hunting.Photo0051

The Almost Forgotten Cycle

I am left bed-ridden most of the day because I over estimated and have “forgotten” what it’s like to have my cycle on me again. After…I don’t recall the last time I had this. (see what I mean by forgetting?)

Work is extra challenging this week, with March about to end (I assure you, I am not ready for this month to end just yet). However, adding this to the factor, work has been excruciating.

I am constantly uncomfortable…higher temperature, so despite the AC, the world is just too hot right now. My bad habit of delaying my restroom breaks are currently non-existing. This has put me on the clock at work and at home. I have to get up and go to the rest room every freaking 3 hours.

Adding the fact that I can’t seem to find the “right” kind of …utilities that would suit me and I seem to be going through 3 brands like I’m eating junk food…leaks!!! Fucking leaks. *sigh*

I should stop now. Talking about this is making me more frustrated than ever.

My only consolation, I am going to get Kira this week.

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*forgot to post this too (LOL)