Self-imposed Wonderland Backdoor

I watched Narnia: The Dawn Treader movie earlier with my friends: Inda, Riz and Bej.  I’m pretty much into the genre of the movie since I also love the books and well I have to admit I root for Edmund…sorry, King Edmund that is. LOL

I have forgotten how the actual story ended, well the entire 7 books. I might have that as an assignment of some sort. To re-read the books…then watch the 3 movies again. OC much?

Bej commented that she liked the series, so I mentioned the books, which led to the question if I was really into the Fantasy genre and I admitted that yeah, love it a lot. When asked why…well…to be honest…because it’s definitely the farthest (?) or the opposite concept against reality.

People might find my reasons rather…childish? In a way, if I do psychoanalyze myself, it would fall under defense mechanism or delusion. But is it delusion if I am fully aware of the difference between fantasy and reality? Would you consider me mentally unbalanced for my preferences? To choose non-reality? Am I less self aware because of my preferences?

I still don’t watch television nor do I read the newspaper despite my father’s advice that to be aware of current events is the first step in being well prepared in daily interaction with people. I do read, if given that I have nothing else to do or I do pick up the newspaper, but often I go to the sports section before the front page. It’s football so sue me!

Before, I did make the effort to read the newspaper daily. I’d like to say that I stopped because it was an additional expense to buy the newspaper every bloody day. But let’s be honest here…partially (slight) because I barely have the time…and (major major) I got tired of reading how until now we have assholes in the government. If they are not corrupt, they’re idiots. If it’s a person with no “known” scandal everyone presumes he must be an expert at hiding his tracks. If it wasn’t about the circus (government) the news would cover inane scandals and emotional (crap) difficulties of celebrities…like that would solve the country’s poverty.

Although one of my friends says that it’s an outlet that Filipinos need to disassociate themselves from their current reality issues. So who am I to argue, I too have my wonderland backdoor. So each to his own yeah? 

This is my reality and since it’s mine, I made a point that I would take the time to isolate myself from its harshness as often as I could get away with it. Thus I watch Anime over the News. I watch crime series and learn multiple ways of how people die instead of knowing how actual people did die during a day. I read macabre fantasy on niche-worlds with angels and monsters with no moral obligations to humanity instead of listening to how an actual person of good moral background could butcher his own family. I listen to alternative rock songs than to the preaching of someone who admonishes everything about how the country is ran by corrupted officials every night, and yet no action is taken, no resolution, no possible future.

I have a self-imposed wonderland backdoor, what do you have to keep your self from going ape-shit?